omg me and my best pal had a massive raw right she asked me to go on a acmaping trip with her i didant realy wannna go but i said yes
just to plez her and when we set off it was fine but secand day in she started to leav me out and stuff hangging out with her mates i mean i new no one it was unfair i told her she started takeing the micky saying im dumb and stupid and stuff showing off and calling me vain emo i dont love myslfe it the oppsait she aint exsactly perfect but yeah on the last night we had a raw ieveryone wAS MESING ROUND SCAREING PEOPLE SO I DECIDE TO JUMPED OUT AT HER SHE TURNED ROUND TO BE A YELLED AND SAID ITS NOT FUNI SIMONE THERE COULD HAVE BEEN A PERVERT THERE BUT THING IS HER FRINEDS DONE THAT BEFOR TO HER SHE GIGELD BUT WITH ME SHE YELLED IT REALY GOT TO ME SO I RAN IN THE TENT CRYING MY EYES OUT
her mates asked what had happend i was in fits of tears i said its her realy upset she started to scream saying lkietbnd to mre right u dpnt fucking understand and all this shit i got up and yell im fucking f=sick of it im sick of it u left me out u yell at me blar blar bblar u took me on this dam holiday atleast pay soem attyenticon to me at that pouint the guys were holding me back i was ganna lamp her one but insted i ran out i didant want to hurt her
and it wouldant of made me feel anybetter
so yeah we sat outside whiles she sayed in the tent she had no sympathy and she came out after i was calm stood there staring at me
so after everyone left i said i was sorry thing is i always have to say sorry i didnat even start it so we huged but it felt weird the enxt day there was this feeling in my stocatch ya no it wasent right she keept looking at me like i was crap even when i hugged her ex bf she gave me a dirty look
so yeah i said sorry and she was liek yeah fine and then i havent spoken to her for a day im upset hurt i thought she was my best pal i dont no what to do i need help
xxxxxxxxx i might just die i have nothing noione anymore first ny bf and know my best pal what next

theres this dude that like send s me flowers and likes to satlk me i kinda adimit i did fancy him to begin with but know im not so sure

lol

hes always  waves at me when im in my room and  smiles at me i even asked him for a hug once when i was feeling like crap he gave me one hehe

my best mate says he fancys me  mayeb but hes like 19 20 and im only 16 but  yeah

i dunno its weird my friends like give him a chance and stuff

i dunno lol  i would liek to but yet aguin  hehe something is stopping me

you know what realy anoyes me is people who judge you why? i mean just coz i am EMO I get judged i dont follow the crowd  yeah you hear stories of emo cutting there selfes but not all emos do that and we get judged the most! i was walking back home yestoday and there was a bunch of kids round where i live  and they were like as i walked past had a nice time slitting your wrists and  started laughingand calling me emo trash and saying i should comit suaside i mean thats fucking rude i just walked on iv had enught i stick up for myselfe i get  judegd  i say jack shit i get  jugdged i give up i realy do

 

who are they to judge us emo are only human at the end of the day we rock  whoo

my birth day in 5 days yayayayayyayyyayayaayya 16 whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

ok well iv finshed school thank the lord i think i did ok in my exsams all i do is sleep eat talk and go out  this week has sucked magger balls well im grounded for something i didant do im anoyed i cant see my best buddi who i need at the mo things are not so swell but apart from that yeah i have a stalker who sends me flowers and notes and watches me out of my window well thats my replacement of my boyfriend lol